iMoveFor Better Health

I have been on a journey to get and be healthy. I have struggled with being overweight most of my adult life. I have lost weight and gained it all back, plus some, more than once. My struggle to be healthy and to live a healthy lifestyle did not really come from lack of discipline, although making good food choices can be tough and does require discipline. My battle was mental as well as laziness. I have struggled with feeling inadequate, insecure, discouraged, feeling that I wasn’t important or didn’t matter. Because of these insecurities I did not want people to notice me or pay attention to me and in an effort to cope with these feeling I would eat. I would eat junk and eat when I wasn’t hungry because it was how I coped with the way I felt about myself; rather than dealing with the root issues. On top of this, I never really did anything active.

In June of last year I found myself the heaviest I have ever been, weighing in at 248 pounds. I felt horrible and I hated seeing myself in pictures. I was honestly disgusted with the way I looked and wanted desperately for it to be different. I was forced to take a hard look at myself and this is when I realized what I had been doing, using food as a vice. It was in this moment that I had to decide whether I was going to continue to be lazy and feed my feelings with food or whether I was going to deal with my insecurities and my feeling of inadequacies. It was in this moment that the struggle became real for me. It was in this moment that I understood what was really going on and I was now responsible to do something about it. It was that moment that I realized I must get up off the couch and start “moving” for my health.

I wish I could say this has been an easy process but I would be lying. It has taken a lot of discipline, accountability, and determination. The insecurities, body issues, emotional eating, and cravings didn’t just stop because I decided I wanted to deal with them. I had to fight through those everyday. I had to decide to allow God to be my source of comfort instead of food. I had to allow people to know how I was really feeling so they could help me through the tough moments. I had to force myself to do what was right instead of what felt good in the moment. Minute by minute and day by day I had to make a choice to fuel my body with healthy food and to workout. I had to choose to deal with my insecurities head on. I had to come to a place where I was able to accept the fact that I am beautiful and adequate and worth people noticing and loving. I had to decide to love myself. I had to daily choose to conquer my thoughts and dismiss them. As I began to do this I began to have victories I could celebrate. With each small victory I gained a little more confidence in myself and was motivated to keep going and to push harder.  

I’m not perfect. I still mess up sometimes but I have people in my life who help keep me on track and motivated. In the course of 10 months I have lost around 68 pounds and 46 inches. I have completely changed my eating and I am usually at the gym 4-6 times a week.

I wanted to share my struggle with you because I want you to have the courage and confidence to conquer whatever it is you struggle with.

 

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About Dallas Freeman

Dallas, 37, was born in Texas and raised in Florida. She is new to a lifestyle of “moving”. She decided a year ago that it was time to transform her life into one of fitness and heath. Over this last year she has lost almost 70 pounds and is continuing to push on and remain moving for health.
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